"You need blood work done"
I know I have’t had a day to do it.
"Well it needs to be done"
Give me a note for tues off so I can go then.
"You don’t need a note for blood work"
Guess its not that important then.
"You’re working too much. You should have a part time job"
Are you gonna pay my bills?
"Your insurence covers your meds and most copays"
Most but not all and I still have to pay some amount of money for my meds.
"Not a lot."
Sure. And after loans, food, utilities, rent and gas one months part time pay will be spent before I even get to food. Are you gonna feed me?
"You can go on food stamps."
Okay sure. That still doesn’t cover rent, utilities or gas. Are you gonna pay those?
"You can ask your mom for help."
My mom can’t afford to pay her own bills.
"Well you’re still working too much."
Sure. When you rent me a room in your house for free I’ll go down to part time and go on food stamps. Till then I have to work full time.
"Well thats not what I want you doing."
And I want you to live on part time, min wage pay for even a month and tell me you can afford everything you need to stay alive and employed but thats not gonna happen either.
My doctor is a fucking prick.
The city I live in has some of the most violent crime in this country.
Why would anyone pay over $1000 for a studio here?!
Right now I’m in a “poor” area. Riiiiiight. Why are 1 bedroom shared living space and kitchen rentals even more then that?!?!
Um. Hello, ny? I would like to remind you that min wage? Yeah I couldn’t pay that every two months! WTF are thinking NY?!
Is there such a thing as food stamps for housing? Is that the section 8 stuff I keep seeing?
Because no one takes that… All these listings say no. And cash security deposit, which is sketchy to me. And “some pets” in most of these places is like “1 hamster” and my dog is almost as small as a fucking hamster and hypoallergenic I’ll just take a picture of her in a hamster cage and we can pretend hows that sound you unreasonable bitches!
So if one makes min wage, works full time and saves every penny you can (for the most part) you can not afford to live here.
NY… I hate you. I hate you sooooo much.
that-witch-bitch said: Hey if you ever need an ear, I can COMPLETELY sympathize. Chin up<3
Thanks. I’ve been venting all over this blog and feel a bit bad.
But I really think I’m gonna try and get a few days off work and just say fuck the world for a few days.
I wish the punching bag that was supposed to be set up months ago had been dealt with. I would feel much better beating the crap out of something. XD
I need several days off work.
I need to find a new place to live.
I need to relax.
I need a real meal.
But I’m so stressed I don’t eat.
And when I do eat it makes me sick.
I wish I had a home to go to…
My mom keeps sending me listings for places that say no dogs. She insists I call and ask if they’ll take my dog.
So the people get mad at me. They mock me. They ask me if its still a dog or still a pet like I’m too stupid to understand. No. My mother keeps getting my hopes up going “oh if you call they’ll take her”
No. No fucking dogs and No fucking pets means no.
Apparently thats too hard to understand.
Then there are these places that list “Pets are okay!” and you call and they’re like “no we never accept any pets of any kind. Nothing in cages, tanks or that walks on four legs” Um. Wow. Thanks for wasting my time bitches. I tell them to update their websites.
To get out of this house I will probably have to get rid of my dog.